Changes

Never ever thought I would blog & it may not last long, but thought I would give it a go. Life is full of changes, some good & some not so good. A little about me: I have been happily married for 23 1/2 years to a good ole country boy a/k/a redneck. I have 2 sons, 21 & almost 16 years old. They are both really good christian boys. I am so blessed to be their Mom. My oldest, Cole, is a senior in college & is getting married in March 2012. He is madly in love & she is a beautiful, intelligent, responsible young woman that loves God with all her heart. I'm just having a hard time trying to figure out my role now. Cole & I have always been extremely close and more friends, than Mother/Son. Now I'm lucky if I get to talk on the phone with him for 15 minutes a week and maybe get to be in the same room with him for a couple of hours once a week or usually less than that. We used to sit & talk for hours, now we hardly get to talk at all & when we do it is always rushed or interrupted.

Grant will be getting his driver's license in a few weeks. I am so NOT ready for that. He is a sweet, kind hearted young man that has trouble telling anyone "no". I see so-called friends taking advantage of his good nature & it breaks my heart. He is extremely social. He loves people & genuinely cares about everyone.

Being a Mom is not for wimps! And trying to be a GOOD Mom is even more challenging. When they were little it was so much easier to protect them. As they spread their wings & venture out on their own, I am filled with pride, fear, anxiety, hope, love & much more. I think only a parent can experience all of those emotions at one time. I cry because I fear that they will be hurt. I cry because I am so proud of the young men they have become. I cry because I can't hold them in my arms, kiss their boo-boos & promise it will all be okay.